I was a police officer for nearly ten years and I was a bastard. We all were.
This essay has been kicking around in my head for years now and I've never felt confident enough to write it. It's a time in my life I'm ashamed of. It's a time that I hurt people and, through inaction, allowed others to be hurt. It's a time that I acted as a violent agent of capitalism and white supremacy.
Under the guise of public safety, I personally ruined people's lives but in so doing, made the public no safer... so did the family members and close friends
of mine who also bore the badge alongside me.